Cycles of Life : Hard Work and Frustration

In our lifetime we are moving round and round in different circles. I am trying to identify these circles. Obviously the goal is to identify them at first, than break later. I will start with the cycle of hard working and frustration.

You start with having a goal and being determined to achieve that.


Then you start working hard,

working hard

obviously you had a timeline in your hand,


Some times later you had period of distractions,


Also you loose interest sometimes,


You have also periods of sadness, unease and what not,


All on a sudden you feel lost,


Then at some point you find you are knocking your dateline,


If you have worked enough to achieve something, you meet your goal sometimes by a very short margin,

meeting hard dateline

But if you did nothing, you feel frustrated,


And burst at yourself,

Burst at yoursefl

And your datelines goes into a graveyard,


Than at some point you find a new goal and become motivated, start working again,

finda new goal

And this cycle goes on and on, I left the success part cause you already what you would be doing if you had succeed.

Driving Change : The Caveman Experience

Sometimes we are not happy with ourselves, it can be a lot things, deficiency in skill set or may be we are trying to produce something but we are not being able to do by living our regular lives. This happens to me some time, then I feel the need of taking a break and work on my skill sets. I experimented this couple of years ago. I was doing very bad in everything, I felt I need to take a break, work on this materials, than come back again.


I figured out what I need to do, what is the syllabus I need to complete, how would I measure I have completed it and what is the maximum timeline I have. I went to the cave,in those 15 days I didn’t met anyone, didn’t talk anyone except my family and didn’t come online to check social network, even slept very minimal. I kept myself confined in home, didn’t even go anywhere.


I was working relentlessly to achieve my goal, although I got distracted a few times daily, but I was counting them to deduct it gradually. And in final days I had very few distraction moments.


So, what did I achieve with this ? When I came back it felt like I knew everything, I was doing far better,having my regular life and having excellent results. Yes, it was because of the hard work I did in the Cave Man period.

Share with me if you have something similar ..

Are you Different ? If you are show me how.

Difference is a virtue we are looking for now-a-days in every person. I hope everyone who submitted applications to different programs knows how many times they have to write everything saying they are different in this perspective or that perspective and so on.Different1

In general perspective human beings are very different from each other with thoughts, approaches, movements, activities. If you gather 5 people in a room and give them freedom to be on their own, you can find different kind of results in different ones.It is quite obvious.


You already are different from others but how do you prove it to the world, here comes the big twist. Cause nobody will believe you, just like every thief says I have never stolen anything. Do you need to do something or take an extra project to show your difference to the world, dedicate some time to think about, bring in something as a proof? Yes, you can do something like that, but that will hamper your regular life, to do’s, plans and programs.


As I told we already are different, we just need to act on this difference. Act on your different ideas, innovate something, show it to the world this is my philosophy in this case. Start from very early in the morning, document your ideas, find out what’s the most different one you had in the day, then know how you can implement the idea, what are things you need to implement it and how far you are from your idea to a viable difference point. This is the very beginning of your difference.

While doing something like that I suggest these steps

  • Start Very Early ..As You had the thought very early, so act on it very earlier than everyone else.
  • Finish Early—Don’t forget to complete i.e achieve your minimum goal, I have problem with this, I always start early but forget to finish, so finishing early is extremely important.
  • Review and Re-innovate- You have already built something, now you have something to show the world you are different, but still you are not getting recognition,world thinks it sucks, what do you do now ? You review everything, think about what could you do more differently and re-innovate the wheel.

So far, this is the procedure I thought of, acting on to prove difference. You cannot prove your difference writing big essays or imaginary thoughts that never even happened or have very minimum practical viability.

Share with me what did you do today to prove your difference, did you have a very different idea to work on ?

24 Hours of Personal Scrum: A Quest to find where all my time Goes

I have a prolonged procrastination problem, which I am fighting everyday and I loved the idea of rule of 3.

Rule of 3

Rule of 3 is basically picking up top 3 things that you want to accomplish in a certain period of time, in a day,week,month of year.


So, I wake up at 7.30 in the morning and decided i will document everything that I will be doing next 24 hours and picked my top 3 goals. It was a weekend, so easy for me to document. Besides I used the famous pomodero technique of time management which leads us to pick a task for 25 minutes, focus relentlessly on the task for 25 minutes then take a 5 minutes break. After 4 Pomodoro’s(120 minutes) it suggests a big break of half an hour and it also suggests to count distractions in the 25 minutes Pomoderons and find out progress of concentration lapses in the periodical time.


So my top 3 goals was :

  • Read a a 200 page book and practice concepts mentioned there.
  • Write a Blog on 2015 top 3 words
  • File application for a program that I really want to get in

Below I shared how it went as time progressed,

Pomodoro’s/Breaks Accomplished Task/Details Distraction Numbers
P1(7.30 A.M to 8 A.M.) read 5 pages of book, I guessed more None
B1(8 A.M. to 8.30 A.M.) Made some breakfast and tea for me, also brushed teeth. watched TV in this time too
P2(8.30 A.M. to 9 A.M.) Read 8 pages from the book, practiced some concepts None
B2(9 A.M. to 10.00 A.M.) Went to Facebook, Mailed some people, bought some vegetables, Made some Tea, Called some folks  
B3(10.00 A.M. to 11.30 A.M.) Bought groceries for myself for the whole week ahead, as I am avoiding outside food now-a-days, Lost to find something that was couldn’t find  
P3(11.30-12.00 A.M) Started Reading again, reading speeded up, I  was on page 36 now.  
P4(12-12.30 P.M.) Continued reading, practiced.  
P5(12.30 –1 P.M) Reading slowed down, I was on page 42 now.  
P6(1-1.30 P.M) Reading Continued, grasped some concepts there  
B4(1.30-2 P.M.) Lunch and Shower  
B5(2-2.30 P.M) Reading Continues, I was on page 51 now.  
P7(2.30-3 P.M.) wrote some codes, practiced some concepts of the code.  
B6(3-3.30 P.M.) Read some blogs, did some reading on Mailchimp integraiton  
P8(4-4.30 P.M) Wrote a Blog Post  
B7(4.30 –5 P.M.) Talking with a friend over phone, I generally talk with this friend longer than this  
B8(5-5.30 P.M.) Blog sharing and Evening snacks  
P9(5.30 –6 P.M.) started the application Talked with uncle in between.
B9(6-7P.M.) Talked with uncle,Mum  
P10(7.30-8 P.M) Finally done with my application  
B10(8-8.30 P.M.) Meeting with some volunteers regarding some initiatives  
B11(8.30-9.30 P.M.) Dinner, calling a friend, fb  
P11(9.30-10 P.M) Started with study again..  
B12(10-11 P.M.) Went for a workout  
B13(11-12 P.M.) Read some blogs  
B14(12-2 A.M.) Sleeping, I love the polyphasic sleeping, it was my first phase  
P12(2-2.30 A.M.) continued reading  
B15(2.30- 3 A.M.) Brushing teeth, tea, reading some creative stuff  
P13(3-4.30 A.M.) this was the longest phase of reading, advanced a lot  
B16(4.30-6.30 A.M.) had my second phase of sleeping  
P14(6.30-7.30 A.M) went for a morning walk to enjoy fresh weather.  

At the end of the 24 hours, I found I over-estimated my reading ability and got distracted, that’s why I couldn’t complete the whole book reading. I reached up to half, but if I could get out of the distraction I could have managed up to 150.

Another hypothesis I made that I need to enhance my reading skills, finding the gist as early as possible, this could help me a lot to grasp concepts and do work thus efficiently.

I found the best way to enhance reading skills, is to keep reading and continue to apply different strategies like faster skimming, than look through concepts and so on. I am still working on it, I will share as soon I make significant advancement on it.

Looking forward 2015: My Top 3 Words

I was thinking about creating new years resolutions but every time I was creating something that was becoming a big list of which most of the things will remain unachieved at the end of the year. I was looking for something minimal, practical and difficult to break. I loved the rule of 3 and than after wondering in internet I found this post, took inspiration and jumped in to pick my ones.

My 3 words for 2015 : Less. Release.Rule

The toughest thing was relating everything to this themes. After thinking quite a bit I did managed to figure out that.



I always made long and longer plans, had big and bigger ambitions, had zillions of thoughts, thoughts of doing a lot things but in most of the cases I achieved very minimal of these. This provoked me to come to the basics, minimal, as little as I can do. I admired power of less. I made simple one goal for daily life, that no matter what happens I will do this today. This helped me to focus more on a task and on a longer period of term achieve more rather having a lot in mind and in the end achieving nothing. I always started early for everything then lost in middle, struggling to finish later at end.

So, the promise is to plan less, think less,  less multitasking, focusing on one task with all my concentration and thus achieve more. To achieve this set everyday one simple target that I want to achieve that day and start  work towards it very early. And I am also picking up the highest priority ones delegating the highly important but less urgent ones in a to do list.



We all know none of our belongings will help us while we require them or in urgency. Last year I  was alone at home for long period due to sickness, I didn’t come online to check facebook, twitter or mails. But what happened with that ? Is that mattered at all ? no, not. You can release this things from your life. The things  that are not mandatory to live on such as possessions or stuff that makes your life poisonous.

I always remained in stress of something, later on found out this stress was really not required, I could have acted better if that stress was not their.

So, this year I want to release all stress, reasons of stress, unnecessary things, have very minimal personal possessions, sell or give away extra personal possessions , go for a remoteyear , live life of a man of freewill.



Yes, everybody want’s to rule the world. But was it possible for everybody ?

Ruling have a separate meaning for different circumstances though. This could be you are a runner, you have a target of running 1000 KM’s in the whole year, this is the meaning of ruling to you. Obviously you want to become better in timing in every kilometers you run.

This also  means something to me, I want to achieve things that I ever wanted, excel in my profession, admit in a graduate course from the intuitions I admire most, increase my skill set to the very level that I want, take my fitness level to the optimum level, move forward, explore and achieve more, reach new heights at volunteerism, work on my initiatives to take them to newer heights and  so on.

What are your top 3 words for 2015 ?

To My Dear Love

Dear Love,

Hope you are fine and  passing your daily life like me. May be you got home right now like me, passing idle time on social networks, looking for me or in other side of the world sleeping and wondering for me in dreams.

In other perspective you could have had a long boring day filled with classes. I know how it feels, after that kind of day you can feel fresh only by watching several movies or may be you were working out like me in Dhanmondi lake, to make yourself fit, living healthy. I am sure wherever are you, you are looking for me, thinking about me.


You did have a thought about me while crossing over road or may be secretly you are following me on online networks, waiting for every updates of mine but you are not showing it because you want me to first discover you. Also you hate red lipsticks as much I do, don’t love to show off yourself to other people, rather focus on your works without thinking about what the world might think, you could have procrastination,forgetting problems like me and you are wanting me to come and rescue you.

May be you are making plans about what we could do when we will be together and getting ready for that,praying to the Almighty for my wellbeing and waiting for me with all your patience. Moreover you are worried about me whether I am taking care of myself or not, reading books or writing prose, poetry.

  Besides that you are worried about how I will receive you, whether I could match up with you or not, you are frustrated about why I am taking so much time to find you. But in the very next moment having sheer amount solitaire.

I just want to let you know, I am also preparing myself for you, looking for you everywhere with all of my patience. I was looking for you while crossing roads, in work in absent mind and relying on the nature soon it will make ourselves connect. Till then, good night, have sweet dreams.

—-(An Open letter to my future love.)

Knowing Thyself

I had this realization if I want to excel in my life, change things than identifying all of my good, bad, ugly virtues will be the primary task. I will start with the ugliest ones.

I have  a prolonged procrastination behavior, I promise myself I will do this today, that tomorrow and this keeps going on for days after days. Sometimes I find things I planned to do years ago still on my procrastinated list.

Besides I loose focus very quickly i.e  I start working on something with sheer interest and huge plans and you could find me doing something completely irrelevant on the very next day.

I have a serious  anger problem, I become furious very quickly, sometimes this leads to unwanted deeds that I never wanted to happen.

On the bad sides, I jump on to something without knowing proper details, which I am trying to change over the period of time. I tended to be a speaker in most of the conversations but now-a-days I am trying to listen first than speak if its required.

I am too much obsessed with information, I read lots of blogs, news and which leads to wastage of time, feels my brain with lots of unrequired information chunks. Don’t know its bad or good, I have a soft heart, you can find me crying on listening someone died there or news on some accidents.

I live a messed up life, I don’t know where all the necessary things of mine are and when its required to find I just freak out, moving everything to find the required ones. But sometimes you can find me organizing my belongings on late night to correct this, which is not a solution after all. I always have the plan to organize belongings in bits everyday but also I forget this everyday.

I have interest for everything which is a bad thing, I become  fascinated by everything. I like to listen peoples stories, connect with people of all spheres, I know some story of every people who lives in my surroundings, it could be the people that you never noticed, such as the tea stall owner you used to take tea everyday or the shopping mal counter boy.

I love to communicate with people, mix with them, know about their lives in virtual and also in real life, When I go somewhere filled up with complete strangers, you will find me mixed up with them after a while such as a long known friend but it depends on the opposite sides persons friendliness.

I love to be in communities, do volunteer works and being involved with volunteer communities .I have made connections in every parts of the world, I can find someone known or familiar in anywhere in the world instantly by being involved with volunteer communities.

Though I have been working as a software engineer  professionally for nearly 4 years, I have lacking’s in my technical skills and I am not really proud of them. My strength in software engineering so far, knowing what needs to do very quickly i.e I understand the requirements, clients needs very quickly, I have compared it with some other peers, identifying the problem and requirements by bits is one of my strength.

But it becomes dilemma when it comes to implementation, I wonder here and there, try different ways, sometimes pass lazy time and wait for extra haul. But at the end I do the work may be missing timelines, working overnights, learning lessons to not repeat in future. Unfortunately those lessons gets lost most of the times.


Some people say that I will never be able to do it or that, but I kind of don’t have this kind of fear, I kind of feel that I can do anything if I put enough amount of concentration and hard work, but I really forgot last time when I did hard work except in organizing events or passing exams. I remember I was a very bad student in elementary school, than after being regular in bits by bits I move up to the ladder gradually. And when I was very regular I used to have knowledge of everything in every time.

In my technological skills enhancement journey the biggest fault was so far not sticking to something and may be not approach in proper way, sometimes I wanted a mentor to guide me all the way just like in childhood home tutor, not thinking about what needs to be done next, but later I realized self motivated learning is the best way to master any craft.

One last thing that I am proud of, I am a great organizer and I always have new and newer ideas, something to do. Everyday I have something new to think of, some new ideas popped up, I recently started to write them on notes, to take action on them later and I never feel that I have nothing to do now. I am doing something always such as after getting back from office, I talked with some of the volunteers I work with, discussed about the next journal themes, did some reading on using mailchimp, watched a scott hanselman video, did some planning, bought vegetables, talked with family,took care of some family responsibilities and so on. I am happy that I have never feelings like that I have nothing to do today. I believe someone very quickly and also cannot say no most of the times which is a problem though.


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